God Will Heal !!!!!

Today I just finished my Physics paper, was so happy, cause its the last paper that i need to worry for.
After Physics examination, I went back and enjoyed my movies! "Finally, SPM is almost over, I'm free!!" said to myself, as if I had wings!!

Unfortunately, I heard a bad news.... about my cousin brother...
He was infected by a disease called LUPUS. I found out about this news 3 days before and I was shocked, I can't even concentrate reading my Biology!! When i was thinking so much, my Dad told me that the doctor had not yet confirm, I was relieved. And i continued my daily activities like nothing had happened. As i came back home this afternoon, my parents told me the Doctor had confirmed my cousin brother is affected by Lupus.

Lupus is an autoimmune disease that can affect various parts of the body, including the skin, joints, heart, lungs, blood, kidneys and brain. Our body's immune system makes proteins called antibodies to protect our body against viruses, bacteria which called antigens. But in Lupus, the immune system cannot tell the difference between foreign substances and its own cells and tissues. The immune system then makes antibodies to fight against itself !!

Lupus can be fatal!! and there is no cure for it... What can be done is just by eating lots of medicine to control the bacteria, viruses and hope it won't attack any part of the body like brain , kidneys, and mouth which can cause a really big ulcer...

In the evening, my parents and I went to Penang and visited him. His face had swollen and everything he sees has 2 visions. I was damn worry, but happy at the same time, he was sitting on the couch waiting for us, and we talked for some time too.

This cousin brother of mine is the one I love the most among all my relatives! He is like my own brother... This question bothered me for hours, "How could he get this disease???!!!" how? Then a voice came to me, things happened for a reason, Pray!!! I simply believe that God will heal him and his whole family will see this miracle and Salvation will reach to them! All the Christians out there who read this, please pray hard for him, he is only 16 years old and there is a full life ahead for him that can be used by God to do amazing things!

Now I'm not that worry anymore, because I know he will be heal.
God is a miracle God!
I know my Redeemer lives.....

I'm Overwhelmed!!!

This is the Jenny I mentioned about.... She is definitely an amazing sister! Haha!!! No words that can describe her. I'm touched by an angle, so lucky to have her as my gorgeous sister.

All this while I thought someone like her is a mythical. A lot of
people that I care for is always or usually very phoney, but she
is not. During predicament situation, she will just pop out of no where and helped me. Just afraid that i'll be too reliant on her, i realized...

Praise God.... God Bless me abundantly by giving me a sister!
Jenny is seriously a great sis and very matured indeed, thinks like a man! hah!

Faith In God

Praise God!!!

I had been studying really hard, and I even sleep lesser nowadays... But my mind always clung with gratuitous thoughts, etc...negative and critical thoughts. Like, can I really do it? left so few days? so many subjects? what if i disappoint my parents? I was so worried! I really don't know if I can do it...so I prayed...

Miraculously, God talked to me Immediately, Immediately!!! great huh?.... During our Youth Service, Pastor Daniel preached bout "Right Thinking, Right Living".... this sentence ( Before we even have Faith in God, God already have Faith in us, and If we are willing to trust God, God will give us the Strength, Wisdom and Courage that we need...all this will be given to us from God )!!
wanna give God all my Praises, for HE is always there to help me whenever i felt discourage.
I'm truly grateful to my pastor too, Pastor Daniel...!! I know that I can Serve God with all my heart, and also have good results for God!

I will trust God with all my heart....
Read Matthew 14:25-32.... I hope that I can have the Faith like Peter, who are not afraid and have no doubt towards God!!

My SPM and My Dream....

pheewww....
I wrote this straight away just after i had finished my revision!!! ahaha.....

left 33 days to go till my big exam (SPM)!!
this few days I have been studying really hard, don't even have the time to go LOO!! Last year (2007-January) until this year (2008-August), i don't really read my books at all, but when my SPM is around the corner, i only realize its too late! I really regretted and almost gave up, but then Jenny said to me, "there is no time to regret, keep moving forward and do the right thing"!!! that sentence she said really encouraged me.

God truly helped me go through all this difficult times... Every time before i started my revision, i would pray, and i could feel the difference straight away... HE gave me wisdom and the strength to study, praise God! Although its a bit late, but if i really try my best, God surely help and bless me, i'm so damn sure...haha!! I know that if I give my BEST, God will do the REST!

Hope that my hard work will pay off, so I can chase after my dream, that is to go overseas and further my study there. Since I was young, I always loved and wanted to go English country! America, Australia, Europe or whatsoever.... Inherit from my Mum i guess... I love everything about them....The Weather, The Sight, and especially the PEOPLE (sharp nose, blue eyes and tall)!!! wow!! perfect huh? love (Ang Moh)...haha!!

I simply believe that God will make arrangement for me if i tried my best!!

Stronger and Sharper

hrmmm.... where do I start?

I'm very happy that God sent me someone, Jenny Lee as my sister! When I didn't have anyone to go to, HE sent me someone who helped me so much. Jenny is such a potential human being, haha!! she is great in like....everything, especially brain washing me! she helped me to overcome many things in my life. I met Jenny in Emerge KL this year, she was a cluster leader and so coincidence I sat beside her, thats how we meet....

I had encountered so much recently, like relationships and my thoughts, my childish thoughts. I'm more than happy to admit that I was not matured enough, and Jenny was the one who helped me realised it. (thanks Jenny)!!!!

I was a person who always looked down on myself and felt that I was stupid, useless and not IMPORTANT, then someone told me..... You Are Who You Think You Are!!! this made me woke up! I'm a Son Of God, I am Important!

Back to relationship, I'm bad in relationship....but trying to improve and last few months I really learned something. Never trust anyone so easily, maybe when you say it out it's very easy, but try living it out, its hard, trust me!! A true friend, when can I find one? I kept asking God. because i never had a true friend, all this while i thought i had one, but no! And then God answered me, Patience.....ok!!! it's my reply to God. A true friend is when he/she is there for you when you're having trouble, and understands you!!! that is true friend....not just having fun together, but going through bad times as well.
(A true friend is one who is there for you in good times or bad times and understands you....)

Relationship with a person you like....wow!!! that's tough. i've dated 5 times, but everytime ending up getting hurt. I like to date because being with someone you like is like in Heaven. But then, someone came and asked me this.... "are you really ready to date? Dating isn't just having dinner together or go for movies together or having a great time together, dating is a long-term relationship and falling in love with the same girl again and again"..... Then I woke up again, and asked myself, am I ready? I'm definitely sure that I'm still not ready for a long-term relationship, not at all!!! I have to control myself, controlling one thing is easy, trying to control oneself, its harder than doing revision...haha!!

I'm only 17 years old, i still have a long way to go, and there are so many things that i still need to learn and encounter... God, Family and Study is my priority!! I'll try my best to be a better and stronger person for God....I'll really try.

Better In Time......