Pretty but Brainless

You are pretty.. so what?
You are cute..so what?
made me realised how pretty girls are so brainless, most of them at least.
Watch your mouth, it's full of shit.
Be pretty and Be humble at the same time,
If still cling with the same attitude,
You will lose everything one day... Oh yea! (rejoicing if that happens)

I am who I am, respect me for that,
I have my own limitation,
Wait till I burst out,
Will do the craziest things you ever imagine.

Loth

Is my sacrifices all over the top?

I already gave what I could give,

hoping you could see.

Wondering why,

why I gave in so much?

Maybe it's just who I am.

Tired of feeling blue,

such a heavy weight,

gonna shake it off,

then make a way.

I am going to skip along,

skip along merrily,

sometimes feeling,

traped in a melancholy room,

no harm will come,

if I just skip along.

"So I'm gonna lay my head back down,

and lift my hands and pray,

knowing you are my only hope".

Mellowing in God's arms.

A place where I can always find comfort.

Life

Life is like a picture,
It will be tainted eventually.

Life is like a sea,
Never know when it will be rough or calm.

Life is like a drought,
Waiting for the rain to fall.

Life is like a highway,
We have a long journey to go.


Friends...? There are so many kinds!

The despicable ones.
The malicious ones.
The peculiar ones.
The extrovert ones.
The loving ones.
The friendly ones.
on and on and on....

We are not perfect, only God is.
We jostle in lives, it's a pavement that everyone walks on.
I had good, close and best friends who lied to me,
who betrayed me,
who gossiped about me,
who lulled me,
who stabbed me at the back.
Life is harsh. I started asking myself one question again. Is it okay to open up my heart again? Because of all the back-stabbing, betrayal, lies, and deceptiveness, no wonder I build a transparent barrier around me. Not allowing anyone to come into my life, not to get close to anyone or even trust anyone.
Some incidents happened that provoked this question in my head.
Wanted to tell myself it's alright to extricate all these bad memories from me, but it just kept clinging in my mind, just like a tainted picture.

I'll talk to God whenever I go through difficult times or even the time of my life, He is a great listener and also a great teacher. When i was talking to Him, suddenly he reminded me...Humans tend to make mistake one way or the other, just like me.
But there are also friends who...
who helped me,
who is there for me,
who cared for me,
and most of all, the one who loves me!
Snap....Yes! How come I never thought of it? Come on! Positive thinking...hello?! Things happen for a reason, even the unpleasant ones. Sometimes we never know what kind of dark secret lies in between, but one thing for sure is that we can be, we WILL be, stronger for the days to come.

Friends "Come and Go". Sometimes people just get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done, sometimes I felt it's excruciating, that's why I run.
In any relationships,
it's not about winning or losing,
it's not about I am the head and you are the tail,
it's not about why me and why not you?
it's all about compromising and appreciating one another.
If it still doesn't work, walk away! Walk away with your head held high, knowing you had tried vehemently. I used to be blinded by pretty girls to be honest, who doesn't get blinded by appearance...huh? But not anymore. Not the same person I used to be. Again, not anymore...because I had learned my lesson, appearance is like a big hole, waiting for you to fall, and when you fall, you fall fast!

It's okay to trust someone again, it's okay to be close with someone again, and it's okay to share your life with someone again. Because you can always find a true friend. Although it takes some time, but eventually it will come, depending on how you build the foundation of the relationship. A good foundation needs honesty, trustworthiness, and are willing to give more than take, because it's a blessing to do so. Choose your friends wisely! It can change your life big time!

Martial Arts

Before this martial art thingy even begins, I planned to learn dancing with Cass. But ended up learning kickboxing! It’s really breath taking, because I kinda like it? Lol. Used to learn taekwondo before, but stopped due to some reasons. Learning something about kicking and punching again is really fun! The main reason I agreed to learn kickboxing is because I felt that I really need to work out, yea…


1st day! (5th May, Tuesday)
Eejon, Cass and I started with the beginner class, but Cass is no longer a ‘New’ student, because she learned kickboxing before, but stopped after one year due to SPM. The first class for us was a bit awkward because of the way we kicked and punched, and also the weird warm up. But, we had fun though. Plus, being able to see Cass and Eejon’s expression when they kick is priceless!

2nd day! (6th May, Wednesday)
So, the next day we went for training too, amusing and interesting as usual. But one unfortunate yet unforgettable incident happened to Eejon…. Here comes the really funny part! Jon and I were talking and fooling around while waiting for the instructor, so I acted as if I wanted to punch him. In returned, he was also trying to flow with me. So he lifted up his leg and wanted to kick me back. Suddenly, out of the blue, we heard a noise…..Shreeeeeeed !!!! He’d torn his pant into two at the bottom, Haha!! I can’t stop laughing at him because it’s hilarious! But we did have a good laugh at it. Sorry Jon, for telling the world. Lol…

3rd day! (7th May, Thursday)
This time, Nicole and Yue shern had decided to come for the trial too. We had our LOL moments as well. Seeing Yue Shern doing all the fighting stunts is also priceless, because she never actually took part in any martial arts before, so it’s really pleasing to watch her punch. Lol. Another comical incident happened to Eejon again. Each kickboxing lesson we would have to find a partner, so Jon and I ended up being partners. While we were on the process of practicing some leg stunt calls, all of a sudden, Shreeeeeeedd !!! Again…. his pant was torn at the right knee level. Haha! We were laughing until both of us squad down on the floor. Without any doubt, Eejon already reached the maximum allowance of humiliation! It’s so unconventional right? Pants torn 2 days in a row, I would call that…. A Legend!!

I really enjoyed the whole kickboxing thing, not only can learn self-defense but had a great time with friends. Great friends surrounding you will make things interesting in whatever you learn, especially kickboxing, including my studies.

College

Sofia's Birthday!

Bob's Birthday!

Random photo taken in psychology class!

haven't update my blog for like 5 months?
Yea....was busy with college (adapting with the new life style), and the main reason was, Lazy!

Let's start with college. When i entered Disted college, i felt that i made the wrong decision, because everything seems so wrong to me, friends, subject, place i stayed, everything, and perhaps, The Wrong College? Hmmm... But as time goes by, i met a bunch of friends, which i really enjoy mixing with. you guys know who is it la, damn good in studies, and also know how to enjoy when it is necessary, Cool right? lol!
Wanna take this opportunity to thank a friend of mine too. Lets name that person S, stands for saviour. At one time, when I was so worried about my Bio report and i really needed a place where i can online, 'S' offered and said i can go S's house, thank God, really saved my day! and S's help keep on coming like rainstorm! example, in my math, Bio HAE, and also Bio exam. really thank 'S'for helping out.

Just wanna add that the friends which i'm mixing with now is really cool! of course, there is ups and downs, but always ended up great!

Now I'm just hoping to improve my studies as much as I could. I do get disappointments in college (STUDIES), quite a lot I might add.

But this...... "What defines us is how we rise from the fall", really need to understand this phrase, really do!

God Will Heal !!!!!

Today I just finished my Physics paper, was so happy, cause its the last paper that i need to worry for.
After Physics examination, I went back and enjoyed my movies! "Finally, SPM is almost over, I'm free!!" said to myself, as if I had wings!!

Unfortunately, I heard a bad news.... about my cousin brother...
He was infected by a disease called LUPUS. I found out about this news 3 days before and I was shocked, I can't even concentrate reading my Biology!! When i was thinking so much, my Dad told me that the doctor had not yet confirm, I was relieved. And i continued my daily activities like nothing had happened. As i came back home this afternoon, my parents told me the Doctor had confirmed my cousin brother is affected by Lupus.

Lupus is an autoimmune disease that can affect various parts of the body, including the skin, joints, heart, lungs, blood, kidneys and brain. Our body's immune system makes proteins called antibodies to protect our body against viruses, bacteria which called antigens. But in Lupus, the immune system cannot tell the difference between foreign substances and its own cells and tissues. The immune system then makes antibodies to fight against itself !!

Lupus can be fatal!! and there is no cure for it... What can be done is just by eating lots of medicine to control the bacteria, viruses and hope it won't attack any part of the body like brain , kidneys, and mouth which can cause a really big ulcer...

In the evening, my parents and I went to Penang and visited him. His face had swollen and everything he sees has 2 visions. I was damn worry, but happy at the same time, he was sitting on the couch waiting for us, and we talked for some time too.

This cousin brother of mine is the one I love the most among all my relatives! He is like my own brother... This question bothered me for hours, "How could he get this disease???!!!" how? Then a voice came to me, things happened for a reason, Pray!!! I simply believe that God will heal him and his whole family will see this miracle and Salvation will reach to them! All the Christians out there who read this, please pray hard for him, he is only 16 years old and there is a full life ahead for him that can be used by God to do amazing things!

Now I'm not that worry anymore, because I know he will be heal.
God is a miracle God!
I know my Redeemer lives.....

I'm Overwhelmed!!!

This is the Jenny I mentioned about.... She is definitely an amazing sister! Haha!!! No words that can describe her. I'm touched by an angle, so lucky to have her as my gorgeous sister.

All this while I thought someone like her is a mythical. A lot of
people that I care for is always or usually very phoney, but she
is not. During predicament situation, she will just pop out of no where and helped me. Just afraid that i'll be too reliant on her, i realized...

Praise God.... God Bless me abundantly by giving me a sister!
Jenny is seriously a great sis and very matured indeed, thinks like a man! hah!