Life, Death, & Wonders

Whenever I see elderly people walking alone, I wonder if they have someone.
Whenever I heard about murders, I wonder who would do that.
Whenever I heard about wars, I wonder when it will end.
Whenever I heard about gossips, I wonder why don't the gossipers mind their own business.
Whenever I heard about abuses, I wonder what made the abusers so cruel.
Whenever....whenever....a list that never ends.

I have this unbearable compassion for people.
I told myself, if I am rich and powerful, I will make things right.
It was a moment of lie, a moment that I wish will last longer.
Because things will never be right.
For a little while? yes. And then reality kicks in.

I am turning 21 in four more months.
I have questions. unanswered questions.
Everyone has a moment of weakness, doubts.
Wondering what life is all about.
Wondering how inhumane we can be.
Wondering why life is so fragile.
Wondering...wondering....a list that never ends.


The only hope I can always cling to is Jesus.
The God who loves us unconditionally.

Adios !!

I was so looking forward to a new life, and who knows,
I'm feeling so bitter about it.

or should I say 'Bitter-Sweet'.

tomorrow, 12pm, is the start of a new path. what's in front of me, I don't know. 

But am I determine to be the best? you bet I am.

leaving behind the family whom I love, 

friends who I secretly missed (yes i do not like to show my emotion),
missing out on the awesome Chinese festivals, and the food! ahhh the food,

all for the ultimate reason, A Better Future!

Well, it's time to bid farewell.
to those who I offended, I'm here to say sorry, sincerely.

having a mix feelings is 'no good', I don't like how it feels.

It's Getting Harder

long story short, had a great trip in penang. Met up with family members and a few VIF. LEL
VIF- very important friends
LEL- lough even louder
I'm that lame, but you're reading, so don't blame me =)))



anyway, i'm lazy with words. pictures shall do the work!

something interesting going on

priceless picture. wait till we grow up and look back at this, lol

okay they used my camera to cam whore. so, here goes

aww, siblings! one of the sister isn't in the pic though, 

from the left: Jamie, Caroline

group pic! too bad one of my aunt's family wasn't back.
would have been better

grandma with the grandchildren

introducing jamie! joker she is

introducing Rowan! tall he is

introducing Kar Yin! tall she is, too

It was a really short trip, but I managed to squeeze in some time for a few more people.

Sofia and Jimmy

Julia and Reuben. 

spending time with the niece that I love very much.

somehow I'm good with babies, gifted. lol

she's gonna be totally different the next time I come back

It's getting harder as the day comes closer. There's still friends I haven't met up, food I haven't eaten, and too little Family time.

others outing with friends will be blogged some other time. 

PS. I Hate Packing!

The Last of Many

Next week. that is all that I could think of.
Sometimes it's still a bit surreal when I think about it. - It's Coming True!

Well, before I make my way out of the hole I've been in, since my college year in Disted (best year anyone could've had), I had to meet up with certain people. I'll let the pictures speak for itself

warning- pictures ahead

 met up with Amy in Penang and took a bus to Taiping

cousin's shop.
funny small talks and eating

Visited uncle Beng's new house.
teanne is inseparable with the mother!!

all cramped in a small room.
 thats how my cousins sleeps. hah!

Tiramisu In Making! 

tadahhh! well, you'll have to wait for it to settle in the fridge before its edible.

Supper!

first manual car I drove in 3 years! surprisingly I still remember. although the engine died on me 3 times trying to reverse. Don't blame me, cars everywhere, I panic! scare the hell out of my cousin. lol

supper again!

Mak Ee supervising, amy helping

its my hand!

2/4 quarters to go

done! the hard work! *PROUD*

in hokkien, we call it "EE"

last gathering I'll have in a few years

a small group of us. most of them couldn't make it due to school and work.

3 from Finland, 1 from Canada, 1 from US
forgotten to take group picture

a lot more pictures of people, places and food, 

but I'm too lazy to upload them. lol

PS. another gathering is yet to come tomorrow night! different people of course

Reached home at 1.36 A.M.

the following words are descriptively vivid

Darkness was all around, not a single light, not even the street lights. Yes, once again the TNB had failed us. This is the third time around this week alone. Looking side to side, wanting to see some activities, yet there was none. Settled down in less than 30 minutes (unpack & bathe), hoping for the electricity to run again, disappointment was all I got.

I gazed out the window and it was pitch-black, as if the darkness gazes back. It had been a blurry night. The moon was caught in the clouds, making it pale white. The sound of water tricking, the almost eerie howling of dogs, leaves rustling on the trees outside, and the wind encompassing everything with it. Making it a still night, almost ominous. 

End of description

I wrote exactly what I saw and heard, not exaggerating. Just to add to the effect and give you a taste of it. haha!
anyway, since there was nothing I could do, I.....

yeap, I read. It kept the night interesting

what made it more memorable was my besty, Choco, accompanied me through the cooling yet 'Itchy' night. have a look

always giving the 'pity-me' look

ah, it work wonders for her.

 when things are topsy-turvy, don't stand and sulk, 

be wise and make something out of it.

   

The Magic Ends Tonight

Been reading the book since the first one came out, and until the last book. Big fan of the movies as well. No doubt the last movie is gonna be epic. So desperate to watch it right now, guess what, I am gonna, in 8 hours time.

midnight movie + Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows: part 2 = awesome to the max

I Grew Up

This blog has been deserted again and again, decided to revitalized it once again !
Btw, if you noticed, I changed the blog title, it use to be "Pardon My Past". The new title says it all, for I have issues and questions that implies/acts both the truth and falsity upon itself.

Ah yes, I'm supposed to update you. Went to a friend's farewell party few days back, in the middle of the conversation, she looked at me and say, "look at us, can you believe we are 20 years old now?" how things had changed since way back then. For starter.....

Don't I look dashing! LOL

and in a few weeks time, I'm gonna be all alone in a whole new world, with new opportunities await, new people to meet, and new places to go. Looking forward for that journey to kick off, at the same time I don't wanna leave. How I am gonna missed out seeing my niece walking and running, parents growing older by the day, how Bersih 2.0 gonna be a huge revolution - I hope, and above all that, Malaysian food ! (it turned me into that fat small boy)

By all means, I will cease this moment like there's no tomorrow. spend quality time with friends who appreciate me, not gonna squander it on those who don't, time's too short, you know it.

Note:  Live in the moment before it passes you

The Classic

I've been so free that I inundate myself with movies
Discovered some really good movies but so far none can beat the ones I grew up with
such as....

yes, The Sound Of Music,
its about the time before and after the invasion of the Nazis

These are some of the photos

During thunderstorm they were scared,
so they ran to their governess's room

The Von Trapps Family

7 trouble makers and 'Julie Andrews'

One of my favorite scenes,
cause its one of the best songs

Another classic...
full of actions and mysteries

ahhh, Indiana Jones and the Raiders of The Lost Ark

The 2nd,
Indiana Jones and the Temple Of Doom


The 3rd,
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade


my favorite one though, is the 2nd.

Last but not least....

My Fair Lady,
the songs are great and the storyline are quite funny.

Call me old fashion, but these are the classic movies of all times!
The Sound of Music's songs, I know most of them by heart, can't help it.

Watch it if you haven't. :)

E.E

E.E. Cummings once wrote

"To be nobody-but-yourself,
in a world which is doing it's best night and day
to make you everybody else"

it means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight,
and never stop fighting.
make sure you do.
Make full of life.
;)

A little Vignette

Life is short,
but at the same time,
sometimes,
at times,
when hardship passes us by,
it feels like the longest.

But when hardship says 'Hello', I want to be able to say 'Bye and have a good life'.
Able to make the best out of it.



How many moments in life can you point to and say: That's When It all Changed

To You

This unfamiliarity, this gap.
How did it find us?
Did it steal into our lives or did we seek to embrace it?

What Happened To Us?

That we are willing to let it come between this greatness we had.
This sort of things happen,
and knowing that some will be lost along the way,
the big question is, when did we lose our way?
consumed by this thing I call shadow.
A shadow that I can never run away from.

The Come Back

My blog IS ALIVE!
I can't believe i'm blogging.
I decided to blog cause I was woken up by my stomachache.
and now, I'm hungry too!

What has been going on with life....
a) SAT almost everyday
b) reading up on university admission
c) resume and personal statement, still dawdling
d) movies whenever I have the chance, on youtube!
e) stop going to the gym and swimming
f) crazy about atlas (it's really interesting)
g) met up with high school friends - everyone changes at some point

well, that's basically it. nothing much really.

PS. it's ironic how you found someone you trust so much in life, and lost that bond in matter of seconds. But then, someone new comes into your life, and a stronger bond is formed. 'All it takes is to have a perspicacious mind to see.'

Farewell

Another year is coming to it's end.
I had a remarkable year, Best Year!
Bad things last, and good things never last.
So, here comes Goodbye.

2009 & Penang = BYe bYE

Bush

I love people with husky voice!
SEXY and Irresistible!

know anyone like that?
NO? too bad...

I know one. Sophia Bush!

Without her, One Tree Hill is nothing.....
So much better than Peyton.