Little Bundle Of Contradictions

Life, Death, & Wonders

2012-01-21T22:13:00.000-08:00

Whenever I see elderly people walking alone, I wonder if they have someone.
Whenever I heard about murders, I wonder who would do that.
Whenever I heard about wars, I wonder when it will end.
Whenever I heard about gossips, I wonder why don't the gossipers mind their own business.
Whenever I heard about abuses, I wonder what made the abusers so cruel.
Whenever....whenever....a list that never ends.

I have this unbearable compassion for people.
I told myself, if I am rich and powerful, I will make things right.
It was a moment of lie, a moment that I wish will last longer.
Because things will never be right.
For a little while? yes. And then reality kicks in.

I am turning 21 in four more months.
I have questions. unanswered questions.
Everyone has a moment of weakness, doubts.
Wondering what life is all about.
Wondering how inhumane we can be.
Wondering why life is so fragile.
Wondering...wondering....a list that never ends.

The only hope I can always cling to is Jesus.
The God who loves us unconditionally.

Adios !!

2011-08-10T12:26:00.000-07:00

I was so looking forward to a new life, and who knows,
I'm feeling so bitter about it.

or should I say 'Bitter-Sweet'.

tomorrow, 12pm, is the start of a new path. what's in front of me, I don't know.

But am I determine to be the best? you bet I am.

leaving behind the family whom I love,

friends who I secretly missed (yes i do not like to show my emotion),
missing out on the awesome Chinese festivals, and the food! ahhh the food,

all for the ultimate reason, A Better Future!

Well, it's time to bid farewell.
to those who I offended, I'm here to say sorry, sincerely.

having a mix feelings is 'no good', I don't like how it feels.

It's Getting Harder

2011-08-08T03:25:00.000-07:00

long story short, had a great trip in penang. Met up with family members and a few VIF. LEL
VIF- very important friends
LEL- lough even louder
I'm that lame, but you're reading, so don't blame me =)))

anyway, i'm lazy with words. pictures shall do the work!

something interesting going on

priceless picture. wait till we grow up and look back at this, lol

okay they used my camera to cam whore. so, here goes

aww, siblings! one of the sister isn't in the pic though,

from the left: Jamie, Caroline

group pic! too bad one of my aunt's family wasn't back.
would have been better


grandma with the grandchildren

introducing jamie! joker she is

introducing Rowan! tall he is

introducing Kar Yin! tall she is, too

It was a really short trip, but I managed to squeeze in some time for a few more people.

Sofia and Jimmy


Julia and Reuben.

spending time with the niece that I love very much.

somehow I'm good with babies, gifted. lol

she's gonna be totally different the next time I come back

It's getting harder as the day comes closer. There's still friends I haven't met up, food I haven't eaten, and too little Family time.

others outing with friends will be blogged some other time.

PS. I Hate Packing!

The Last of Many

2011-08-04T19:39:00.000-07:00

Next week. that is all that I could think of.
Sometimes it's still a bit surreal when I think about it. - It's Coming True!

Well, before I make my way out of the hole I've been in, since my college year in Disted (best year anyone could've had), I had to meet up with certain people. I'll let the pictures speak for itself

warning- pictures ahead

met up with Amy in Penang and took a bus to Taiping


cousin's shop. funny small talks and eating

Visited uncle Beng's new house.
teanne is inseparable with the mother!!

all cramped in a small room.
thats how my cousins sleeps. hah!

Tiramisu In Making!

tadahhh! well, you'll have to wait for it to settle in the fridge before its edible.

Supper!


first manual car I drove in 3 years! surprisingly I still remember. although the engine died on me 3 times trying to reverse. Don't blame me, cars everywhere, I panic! scare the hell out of my cousin. lol


supper again!

Mak Ee supervising, amy helping

its my hand!

2/4 quarters to go

done! the hard work! *PROUD*

in hokkien, we call it "EE"

last gathering I'll have in a few years

a small group of us. most of them couldn't make it due to school and work.

3 from Finland, 1 from Canada, 1 from US
forgotten to take group picture

a lot more pictures of people, places and food,

but I'm too lazy to upload them. lol

PS. another gathering is yet to come tomorrow night! different people of course

2011-07-24T13:16:00.000-07:00

Reached home at 1.36 A.M.

the following words are descriptively vivid

Darkness was all around, not a single light, not even the street lights. Yes, once again the TNB had failed us. This is the third time around this week alone. Looking side to side, wanting to see some activities, yet there was none. Settled down in less than 30 minutes (unpack & bathe), hoping for the electricity to run again, disappointment was all I got.

I gazed out the window and it was pitch-black, as if the darkness gazes back. It had been a blurry night. The moon was caught in the clouds, making it pale white. The sound of water tricking, the almost eerie howling of dogs, leaves rustling on the trees outside, and the wind encompassing everything with it. Making it a still night, almost ominous.

End of description

I wrote exactly what I saw and heard, not exaggerating. Just to add to the effect and give you a taste of it. haha!
anyway, since there was nothing I could do, I.....

yeap, I read. It kept the night interesting

what made it more memorable was my besty, Choco, accompanied me through the cooling yet 'Itchy' night. have a look

always giving the 'pity-me' look

ah, it work wonders for her.

when things are topsy-turvy, don't stand and sulk,

be wise and make something out of it.

The Magic Ends Tonight

2011-07-13T01:33:00.000-07:00

Been reading the book since the first one came out, and until the last book. Big fan of the movies as well. No doubt the last movie is gonna be epic. So desperate to watch it right now, guess what, I am gonna, in 8 hours time.

midnight movie + Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows: part 2 = awesome to the max

I Grew Up

2011-07-12T08:02:00.000-07:00

This blog has been deserted again and again, decided to revitalized it once again !
Btw, if you noticed, I changed the blog title, it use to be "Pardon My Past". The new title says it all, for I have issues and questions that implies/acts both the truth and falsity upon itself.

Ah yes, I'm supposed to update you. Went to a friend's farewell party few days back, in the middle of the conversation, she looked at me and say, "look at us, can you believe we are 20 years old now?" how things had changed since way back then. For starter.....

Don't I look dashing! LOL

and in a few weeks time, I'm gonna be all alone in a whole new world, with new opportunities await, new people to meet, and new places to go. Looking forward for that journey to kick off, at the same time I don't wanna leave. How I am gonna missed out seeing my niece walking and running, parents growing older by the day, how Bersih 2.0 gonna be a huge revolution - I hope, and above all that, Malaysian food ! (it turned me into that fat small boy)

By all means, I will cease this moment like there's no tomorrow. spend quality time with friends who appreciate me, not gonna squander it on those who don't, time's too short, you know it.

Note: Live in the moment before it passes you

The Classic

2011-01-20T06:19:00.000-08:00

I've been so free that I inundate myself with movies
Discovered some really good movies but so far none can beat the ones I grew up with
such as....

yes, The Sound Of Music,
its about the time before and after the invasion of the Nazis

These are some of the photos

During thunderstorm they were scared,
so they ran to their governess's room

The Von Trapps Family

7 trouble makers and 'Julie Andrews'

One of my favorite scenes,
cause its one of the best songs

Another classic...
full of actions and mysteries

ahhh, Indiana Jones and the Raiders of The Lost Ark

The 2nd,
Indiana Jones and the Temple Of Doom

The 3rd,
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade

my favorite one though, is the 2nd.

Last but not least....

My Fair Lady,
the songs are great and the storyline are quite funny.

Call me old fashion, but these are the classic movies of all times!
The Sound of Music's songs, I know most of them by heart, can't help it.

Watch it if you haven't. :)

E.E

2010-10-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

E.E. Cummings once wrote

"To be nobody-but-yourself,
in a world which is doing it's best night and day
to make you everybody else"

it means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight,
and never stop fighting.
make sure you do.
Make full of life.
;)

A little Vignette

2010-10-18T08:38:00.000-07:00

Life is short,
but at the same time,
sometimes,
at times,
when hardship passes us by,
it feels like the longest.

But when hardship says 'Hello', I want to be able to say 'Bye and have a good life'.
Able to make the best out of it.

How many moments in life can you point to and say: That's When It all Changed

To You

2010-10-18T08:25:00.000-07:00

This unfamiliarity, this gap.
How did it find us?
Did it steal into our lives or did we seek to embrace it?

What Happened To Us?

That we are willing to let it come between this greatness we had.
This sort of things happen,
and knowing that some will be lost along the way,
the big question is, when did we lose our way?
consumed by this thing I call shadow.
A shadow that I can never run away from.

The Come Back

2010-09-14T14:41:00.000-07:00

My blog IS ALIVE!
I can't believe i'm blogging.
I decided to blog cause I was woken up by my stomachache.
and now, I'm hungry too!

What has been going on with life....
a) SAT almost everyday
b) reading up on university admission
c) resume and personal statement, still dawdling
d) movies whenever I have the chance, on youtube!
e) stop going to the gym and swimming
f) crazy about atlas (it's really interesting)
g) met up with high school friends - everyone changes at some point

well, that's basically it. nothing much really.

PS. it's ironic how you found someone you trust so much in life, and lost that bond in matter of seconds. But then, someone new comes into your life, and a stronger bond is formed. 'All it takes is to have a perspicacious mind to see.'

Farewell

2009-12-27T04:26:00.000-08:00

Another year is coming to it's end.
I had a remarkable year, Best Year!
Bad things last, and good things never last.
So, here comes Goodbye.

2009 & Penang = BYe bYE

Bush

2009-12-20T11:20:00.000-08:00

I love people with husky voice!
SEXY and Irresistible!

know anyone like that?
NO? too bad...

I know one. Sophia Bush!

Without her, One Tree Hill is nothing.....
So much better than Peyton.

Jingle Bells Jingle Bells, Jingle all the Way!

2009-12-19T13:15:00.000-08:00

check out David Archuleta christmas album
"Christmas from The Heart"
Definitely gave me the Christmas Spirit.

Favorite track,
1) Oh come All Ye Faithful
2) The First Noel
3) Joy To The World
4) Silent Night
5) O Holy Night

actually, too many to list out.

Christmas Is coming!
Lets hope I have a good time with my family and friends.

One Tree Hill

2009-12-05T13:20:00.001-08:00

I love this series!
It teaches you stuff, like...

REVENGE, it can only bring you so far.

LOVE, your friends and family without any conditions.
HONESTY, without it no relationships can last.
LIES, digging a grave for yourself.

watch it and you'll agree with me.

I can't seem to stop watching it.

Call Me Crazy

2009-11-15T08:58:00.000-08:00

Jon and I walked under the rain, bare footed!
Yap, Call-Me-Crazy! or should I put it in a way, Call-Us-Crazy!

At a moment,

we really look like we came out from a psychiatric ward in 'Fox River'.
Erm, 'under the rain', 'bare footed', 'night time'...

you'll have to agree to that.
Jon called it Marathon under the rain, Lameness, I know!

Runs in the Yeoh's family.
Then we droped by the Nicole's house, she joined our marathon too.
Next stop was Piggy Roll's house, Sofia's.
Had a great time talking. LOL moment as usual.
Well, finals are over, of course must do some crazy stuff, makes life interesting.

Oh btw, I'm having a mild headache now.
stupid act comes with a consequence.

Weird yet Unique

2009-11-13T10:46:00.000-08:00

Lady Weirdo! Gaga I mean.

hope its not too obscene.

Seriously????? She is weird.
She desperately needs help from the fashion police.
But, i can't deny that she is good, damn good!
Her new song "Bad Romance", made my mouth left wide opened.
Never seen such video before.
I like it cause it's simply unique and creative.

The song is DOPE ya'll!

her songs just keep giving me chills

SAM 2009

2009-11-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

my Buddy!

Nicole, treat her like my sister.

see who's signature is on it?

Tze Yang & Jason

SAM Night Comittee

Car Wash-Fundraising for SAM night

Meet Florence. See how Bimbo she can get?

Biology Field Trip

Finals are finally over!? Meaning....
This marks the end of "SAM" too.
Joy & Heartbreaking at the same time.

This year has been one of the greatest years yet.
I learned to depend on God.
I learned to love the people around me, especially my family.
I found a few friends, close friends, which is worth more than anything.
I learned to be independent at times, when I'm all alone (my apartment suck).
I learned to study hard and smart, just not as hard and as smart like some of my friends, if you know who I'm referring to.

We are the loudest in college, so does everyone says.
We can laugh non-stop, for the lamest things.
We car-pool all the time, to almost everywhere.
We even dared to play 'wave', in Breeks!
We had a fundraising (car wash), for our SAM Night.
We had a 'cat-walk', after Biology exhibition.
We break Disted college rules, all the time. (climbing up the roof, wearing slippers etc)
We planned Birthday Surprises for everyone, almost everyone.
We are so called thick-skin, for we can just stand in a circle, in the middle of gurney!
We have our own thinking spot, it’s a place where we just stand and think.
We drifted in college; it’s a Must-Try-Thing.
We hangout in Gurney, a lot!
We had study group, it really does help.
We love to eat, because we have a slogan, ‘We Live to Eat’
We had sleepover, watching movies and BBQ together.
We had beach party, we simply love the beach.
We ‘love’ Gurney Food Court, how miserable?
and most of all, We will miss the crazy, idiotic, cam-whore moment, which is something we do almost everyday.

We have 51 more days to go, until we go our own separate ways.
Treasure every moment, Shall We?

Good Things Come in Small Packages, Spot On! =)

more photos will be up!

In Return

2009-10-19T07:15:00.000-07:00

When you care for X, you hope that X would do the same.
When you watch your diet, you hope to look good.
When you study hard, you hope to strive for the best.
When you work hard, you hope to earned.
When you go party, you hope to have fun.
When you say sorry, you hope to be forgiven.
When you stand up for youself, you hope to have a better future.
When you share your problem with Y, you definitely hope that Y would do the same.

There is always something you hope for In Return.
If what you’re hoping for doesn’t seem to come around,
gradually things will change, without doubt.

P/S. It really does "Comes Around & Goes Around"

Should I?

2009-10-15T04:10:00.001-07:00

You will always come first among all.

Don't ask me why, I'm clueless myself.

When I'm laughing, it may just be a mask.

A mask to cover what's really inside.

Because I just wanna enjoy while I could.

Perhaps I should stop trying.

Perhaps you're just too popular to see what's infront of you.

Perhaps I'm just fooling myself.

P/S. Perhaps I'm just selfish. SUE ME

I Promise You

2009-10-10T00:48:00.000-07:00

There may come a time,
you just can't seem to find your way.
I'm sorry it didn't work out as you wished it could.
I will be Someone in the future.
I won't be a heart breaker.

P/S. When I saw you walked out from that building, my heart was aching.
And it is still....aching.

Every Small Things Matter

2009-10-06T04:54:00.000-07:00

you made me smiled,

you made me mourned,

you are truely a

'Double-Edged-Sword'

P/S. I am trying my very best to understand, but are you???

FYI, things goes both ways.

Just For Your Information

2009-09-24T09:15:00.000-07:00

Dying!!!!
Went college about 9am, and reached home from college about 7.50 pm. Well, it has been repeating for a few days now.
Practically went college whole day because of One Hell of A Big Biology Project, and we were the last to leave the college, "Believe It Or Not, Believe it"!
Tiring yet enjoyable. All the working-hard-together, lameness, loudness, frustration, agressiveness, is just something that we share together during the preparation for Biology Exhibition. Seriously, its really big. Press might be coming as well.
Lets hope I'll do well for tomorrow. Btw, it starts tomorrow!

P/S. Come to Disted for the exhibition if you'll like. It's free... Nature Rocks!

Photos will be uploaded after the exhibition officially ends.

Vulnerable Facade

2009-09-21T17:38:00.000-07:00

It's just appearance,
The mischievous look of yours is all over the place.
I may be strong outside, but looks can be deceiving eh?
I wish I'd a faster learning curve.
Well, lets not make a huge commotion out of it.

let's just say....
Ain't No Mountain High Enough,
Ain't no Valley Low Enough,
Ain't River Wide Enough,
To keep me from getting to the top.
:-)

Me Against The Temptation

2009-09-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

Shall I lie, or shall I linger?

Wanted to go clubbing, due to peer pressure. Yap, it will affect you. But I told myself, 'I must not'... Finals is in a month time?
So there were only 2 choices left, Partying or flipping pages? Of course partying sounds much better and cooler, yea? But I went for the second one, I made a wise decision i guess...
Plus, I have 2 damn economics assignment, Biology report, Psychology report and Biology exhibition. It's all piling up! The fact is, Education can be really Bitchy sometimes, it drains your soul? Hocus-Pocus!
As usual, temptation's everywhere! It all started from Jamie Loo, thanks a lot you 'manslaughter' queen! LOL

Then someone told me this, Education is your life. Can not afford to screw it up.
yap! Amen to that!

P/S. If Future is the quest, then Books is the conquest!
just great....SWT!

No Idea About The Title

2009-09-09T07:05:00.000-07:00

It's gonna be a rough 7 weeks for me, for everyone! Then it's our FINALS.

I seriously miss the break we had a week ago. The partying, the late nights, the movies, the "have any plans tonight" question. Well, I'll have to wait until the mid of November to do all of it again. Prom is a no-go too. Going for SAM night instead, hope it will come true.

Went coffee island with a friend of mine today, to online. Don't have internet connection back in my apartment, and he wants to online. So I did my assignment there while he was doing....facebook? LOL.
After that, went jogging by the seaside with another friend of mine. Love the view of the sunset too, it was so striking, seriously. How awesome is God huh. It was an evening of impromtu for me.

P/S. Thanks for the 'spontaneous' plans. I genuinely needed it to stop me from thinking!

Simply Bored

2009-09-05T03:02:00.000-07:00

Break is going to end soon. Why?!
I love breaks, it makes me happy. At least for me. LOL

My friends are still hesitating whether to go Prom or not, and it's starting to get on my nerves. Just speaking the truth.
Tomorrow going for movie (FD4) I guess, hope I'm gonna like it.
I bet I do cause I love seeing people getting killed, exciting isn't it? hmmm...

Greatness, He is

2009-09-03T23:24:00.000-07:00

You're My hiding place
You're My safe refuge
You're My treasure
You're My friend

Today, I encounter with you. Thank you for reminding me that, with God everything will be more than OKAY, more than great. For you're the founder of love. For you're the reason we're here.
Won't worry about anything anymore, cause He will guide me to the right path.

I Will Exalt You

Can't sleep!

2009-09-03T05:50:00.000-07:00

I'm not sleepy, but my eyes are tired.
Mum bought a few brand new movies today, and I finished all of them, today! That explains why I have tired eyes.

I managed to watched Premonition, Hannah Montana the movie, Obsessed, 17 again and Stepmom. Although I watched Stepmom like 6 times already, but it still touch me as always.
5 movies in a day. Plus, washing the cars, washing my shoes, and went shopping with mum. It was quite a day.

Btw, i'm really starting to like Miley Cyrus, her songs are really good. That kind that you'll even sing when washing the car, or when you're in the loo.
Maybe she is not that pretty after all, but she is talented. Even though my mum hates her (no idea why).
"Let's Party In The USA", I can just replay it whole day, including when I'm taking my nap. It's that nice.
Great songs sang by her just kept pouring in! Now I'm obsessed with the song, Obsessed? LOL. But it's really good, try listening to it.

P/S. Thanks to someone that I'm a Miley freak now. Guess who?

Upper Penang Road (UPR)

2009-09-03T03:02:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I'm so lazy to blog about it.
But it's a must. So I'll just touch on a few things.

Saturday was quite a boring day for me, until I saw the moon.
Went church and dinner, then went back and prepared for my first time thingy (Clubbing).
Samuel came and picked me up at about 11.30 I think.
People who are involved are Edwin, Ben, Kok Foo, Jon, Samuel, Wei Jian, Damian and I.
I was surprised to found out that Damian and I are the only legal ones, LOL.

Well, it's a good experience for me though. Tried Absolut Vodka and Long Island, tasted bad at first, but good after. Since I love loud music and dancing, I really enjoyed. We did dance our heart out, and sure hell did sweat like pigs.
After clubbing which is about 3 something, went Jamal. That night I fell in love with something.
Something which is so amazing,
something which is so marvelous
something which is so mesmerizing,
something called "Maggie Goreng Kosong". Hmmmm...Yum! haha!
Wei Jian and I were high, that's what they said. Never ever believe what people say, it's all lies. LOL

Here are some of the photos.

So long, farewell. Goodnight folks!!!!

Gurney Much

2009-08-27T10:01:00.000-07:00

Today slept until 2.00 pm, yap, was so tired.

Woke up then went and picked up Jon.

Trials just finished, we just have to go Gurney, shopping! Lol. Wanted to buy jeans since last month, so today went to have a look, and also to take a sneak preview of what am I going to buy for Prom. I seriously can't believe it's so darn difficult to just buy one nice, smart-looking jeans.

Went into Levi's shop. I wanted to buy, but ended up Jon, he himself also interested, so both tried on a few. I saw one jeans, and I love it. But the price is just killing me. Plus, no size (the whole shop), what kind of Levi's shop is that? nevermind.... Went Padini, the price is fairly cheap, but the design was just ugly. Other shops were quite disappointing too. Then I decided not to shop for jeans anymore, cause I was demotivated. Lol. Went popular and MPH in the end. Who ever thought shopping could be so exhausting huh?

After dropping Jon back, went gurney again with Bob to watch movie. Wei Jian texted me and said he wants to watch too, but last minute PPK-ed... said he is tired. Saint's student just like to PPK. Lol.

Jeans is making me going nuts

Shall We Dance?

2009-08-27T03:10:00.000-07:00

It's time for some fun! Gonna forget about my trials result for now.

One week break.

1. Clubbing this saturday? ( if it's gonna happen, it's my first time )

2. Am I going KL too?

3. Meeting up with some old friends maybe?

Prom is coming soon...

Prom without a date? Yap!!

Prom held in Gurnet hotel. Not Cool.

Prom, then after party? that is the plan.

Will this prom be something I'll always remember?

Lets make this Prom into a Fairy Tale!

What a Boom!!

2009-08-26T16:30:00.000-07:00

Finished my trials today. Wuuhooo!!!
Unfortunately,

ESL
Economics
Psychology
Mathematics
Biology

Was very disappointed with my Biology. After Biology paper, I looked at everyone, they were grinning from ear to ear, as if they just won a million dollars. But mine was........ as if my dog just died. Pfftttt.... Just to let you know, I don't have a dog.

But seriously, what happen to me?!

Gonna sleep now, slept for freaking one hour, for what? still don't know how to answer all.

P/S. You do what you do best, "doesn't care"

I'll Be Damned!

2009-08-26T14:30:00.000-07:00

When I needed a shoulder to lean on,

Where were you?

All I need is for you to be there, thats what friends do.

Perhaps I'm not who I think I am for you.

Perhaps my instinct is like a poison ready to set in.

I always wonder,

Is it your ego or you simply just don't care?

Why do I react like this? It's because you're someone special, it's that simple.

One In A Million

2009-08-21T05:16:00.000-07:00

Never thaught I would ever felt like this.
Felt like I know you all my life.
But sometimes it doesn't seem that way.
The secrecy of things you do.
Which is something I dislike.
Being close, but then pulls away.
Sometimes care, yet doesn't care at all.
Most of the time I just give in, to avoid conflict.
Weird should be your nickname, cause I thaught I knew.

Truly One In A Million...

P/S. Are you sure It's you I'm talking about? Think twice.

Oblivion

2009-08-13T08:12:00.000-07:00

What a week!!!

Car broke down in penang bridge, about 3.00 a.m., Sunday. Did the "hand thingy" in the middle of the bridge for help, but nobody bothered! Luckily Florence came for the rescue. (Thanks Flo, I owe you) Slept at 6.00 a.m. and woke up at 7.30 a.m., then went for college. Insufficient sleep, suprisingly I managed to concentrate in every class! not bad....

Found out grandma was hospitalised. Went and visit her every night for these past few days, Praise God she is better now.

Stephanie came back from..... Italy (if not mistaken), Went to the beach with her, then dinner. Quite an evening, I might add.

A few dramas happened in College, which I didn't see it coming, and it's big. Wondered why does it had to happened, and my trials is in a week time, what a good timing huh?

Every single night, the stress of having trials in another 10 days would just provoked me to be.........more stressful? LOL

A week which has a little mixture of exasperation and amusement!

Exasperation 83% + Amusement 17%

P/S. Shut your Big Ignorance mouth...

Justice!

2009-07-31T08:45:00.000-07:00

Not that bad huh?

Still not that bad right?

Life is tough,
Just like what I've been told,
ever since I was born to this awful yet beautiful place,
A place we called earth!

My friends and I would usually car pool to college every weekdays. Unfortunately, due to blind spot or carelessness, we banged into a Myvi.
SWT!

So the whole drama went on. Long story short.
We went and reported about the accident in this gigantic police station.

There were these officers who I would call @#$%@#$, not gonna give too much details, later He/She sue me!
Fortunately, one of the officer we could still tolerate, but the other one was a Bastard, raised in the jungle!
Lets name that stupid idiot "Buffalo". While we were reporting, that Buffalo who attended us was so rude and impatient.
What In The World?!?!
Should had seen the way that buffalo talked to us. The tone, The actions, The face expression was just unacceptable, looks like a... whore? Feel like slapping that buffalo and stuck 10 bananas in that buffalo's mouth!

We were all mad, especially me! "Revulsion and fury rose in me like vomit", this is the sentence that best describe what I felt. That is why our world can never achieve these two words call "World Peace"!!! It's never gonna happen if we people are so rude, impatient, stuck-up, Bastard and Bitchy!!! Plus, IT'S an OFFICER!!!!
We want justice!

This made me realised....
If you are weak, you loss!
If you are strong, you win!
Mum kept telling me, life is tough, it's so00 not bogus.

Human species is just a really weird... Species??
The really normal ones is so hard to find nowadays.

P/S, Btw, we people who experienced this whole drama is Nicole, Sofia, Jon and I. For more info, read sofia's blog.

Reflection

2009-07-14T08:06:00.000-07:00

Look at your actions,
Look at your emotions,
Look at yourself through the mirror,
Look at your reflection.

Is it worth it?
Some things are meant to be,
but some are not.
Why can't you move on?
When you do that, you are as free as an angel.
Won't cause you any harm if you just try.
Don't be the vulnerable you.
Stop the "tear drops on my guitar"!

It's our "dirty little secret" ohh yea...

Coming Soon

2009-07-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

To-Do List, "Boring"

1. 3 Economics Assignment to complete!
2. ESL presentation!
3. ESL interview!
4. Economics research!
5. Psychology test!

To-Do List, "Whirlwind"

1. Ring-Boy!
2. Singing performance!
3. Prom Night!

To-Do List, "Scary"

1. Trial exam!
2. Finals!

Life is Bitter, Sweet, and Sour huh?
This is what makes life so interesting.

Attention

2009-07-13T07:10:00.000-07:00

Photo will be uploaded soon.
More to come.
Stay tune!

Grow Up

2009-07-13T07:05:00.000-07:00

It's been six years since I last saw you.
Grown up haven't you? So fast, too fast indeed.
Still remember we used to play Harry Potter, using Playstation One, and now there is Playstation 3.
We are frivolous, and even quarrel for games. Lol... Childish!
Who can we blame? We are only 12 years old back then.
We were best friends huh?
After meeting you, made me realised that you have your own life, own friends, and also different aims in life.
You, making it to Queensland University, do sound incredulous to me.
Same here, I have my own friends now, friends that I really care about, family that I appreciate more as day goes by, and pre-dawn dreams that I'm trying hard to make it come true.
Time really does flies, and when it does, things change with it.
6 years really do change loads of things!

P/S. will live my life to the fullest!

Exhilaration Receded

2009-07-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

Time flies!! The one week break that everyone was so eager about just passed, in a blink of an eye. I had fun, too much fun I might add. It's a good thing though. So many plans and programs, which actually did happen. Like...
Sleepover,
BBQ,
Genting trip,
Beach party,
Super late supper!
happen to know lots of new friends as well.
hmmmm, learned lame and cool jokes too, thanks to St. Xavier's students.
Basically, break is over and study season is back.
back to the real world.
Oh Yeah...

Pretty but Brainless

2009-06-22T12:20:00.000-07:00

You are pretty.. so what?
You are cute..so what?
made me realised how pretty girls are so brainless, most of them at least.
Watch your mouth, it's full of shit.
Be pretty and Be humble at the same time,
If still cling with the same attitude,
You will lose everything one day... Oh yea! (rejoicing if that happens)

I am who I am, respect me for that,
I have my own limitation,
Wait till I burst out,
Will do the craziest things you ever imagine.

Loth

2009-06-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

Is my sacrifices all over the top?

I already gave what I could give,

hoping you could see.

Wondering why,

why I gave in so much?

Maybe it's just who I am.

Tired of feeling blue,

such a heavy weight,

gonna shake it off,

then make a way.

I am going to skip along,

skip along merrily,

sometimes feeling,

traped in a melancholy room,

no harm will come,

if I just skip along.

"So I'm gonna lay my head back down,

and lift my hands and pray,

knowing you are my only hope".

Mellowing in God's arms.

A place where I can always find comfort.

Life

2009-06-06T10:46:00.000-07:00

Life is like a picture,
It will be tainted eventually.

Life is like a sea,
Never know when it will be rough or calm.

Life is like a drought,
Waiting for the rain to fall.

Life is like a highway,
We have a long journey to go.

Friends...? There are so many kinds!

The despicable ones.
The malicious ones.
The peculiar ones.
The extrovert ones.
The loving ones.
The friendly ones.
on and on and on....

We are not perfect, only God is.
We jostle in lives, it's a pavement that everyone walks on.
I had good, close and best friends who lied to me,
who betrayed me,
who gossiped about me,
who lulled me,
who stabbed me at the back.
Life is harsh. I started asking myself one question again. Is it okay to open up my heart again? Because of all the back-stabbing, betrayal, lies, and deceptiveness, no wonder I build a transparent barrier around me. Not allowing anyone to come into my life, not to get close to anyone or even trust anyone.
Some incidents happened that provoked this question in my head.
Wanted to tell myself it's alright to extricate all these bad memories from me, but it just kept clinging in my mind, just like a tainted picture.

I'll talk to God whenever I go through difficult times or even the time of my life, He is a great listener and also a great teacher. When i was talking to Him, suddenly he reminded me...Humans tend to make mistake one way or the other, just like me.
But there are also friends who...
who helped me,
who is there for me,
who cared for me,
and most of all, the one who loves me!
Snap....Yes! How come I never thought of it? Come on! Positive thinking...hello?! Things happen for a reason, even the unpleasant ones. Sometimes we never know what kind of dark secret lies in between, but one thing for sure is that we can be, we WILL be, stronger for the days to come.

Friends "Come and Go". Sometimes people just get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done, sometimes I felt it's excruciating, that's why I run.
In any relationships,
it's not about winning or losing,
it's not about I am the head and you are the tail,
it's not about why me and why not you?
it's all about compromising and appreciating one another.
If it still doesn't work, walk away! Walk away with your head held high, knowing you had tried vehemently. I used to be blinded by pretty girls to be honest, who doesn't get blinded by appearance...huh? But not anymore. Not the same person I used to be. Again, not anymore...because I had learned my lesson, appearance is like a big hole, waiting for you to fall, and when you fall, you fall fast!

It's okay to trust someone again, it's okay to be close with someone again, and it's okay to share your life with someone again. Because you can always find a true friend. Although it takes some time, but eventually it will come, depending on how you build the foundation of the relationship. A good foundation needs honesty, trustworthiness, and are willing to give more than take, because it's a blessing to do so. Choose your friends wisely! It can change your life big time!

Martial Arts

2009-05-10T05:42:00.000-07:00

Before this martial art thingy even begins, I planned to learn dancing with Cass. But ended up learning kickboxing! It’s really breath taking, because I kinda like it? Lol. Used to learn taekwondo before, but stopped due to some reasons. Learning something about kicking and punching again is really fun! The main reason I agreed to learn kickboxing is because I felt that I really need to work out, yea…

1st day! (5th May, Tuesday)
Eejon, Cass and I started with the beginner class, but Cass is no longer a ‘New’ student, because she learned kickboxing before, but stopped after one year due to SPM. The first class for us was a bit awkward because of the way we kicked and punched, and also the weird warm up. But, we had fun though. Plus, being able to see Cass and Eejon’s expression when they kick is priceless!

2nd day! (6th May, Wednesday)
So, the next day we went for training too, amusing and interesting as usual. But one unfortunate yet unforgettable incident happened to Eejon…. Here comes the really funny part! Jon and I were talking and fooling around while waiting for the instructor, so I acted as if I wanted to punch him. In returned, he was also trying to flow with me. So he lifted up his leg and wanted to kick me back. Suddenly, out of the blue, we heard a noise…..Shreeeeeeed !!!! He’d torn his pant into two at the bottom, Haha!! I can’t stop laughing at him because it’s hilarious! But we did have a good laugh at it. Sorry Jon, for telling the world. Lol…

3rd day! (7th May, Thursday)
This time, Nicole and Yue shern had decided to come for the trial too. We had our LOL moments as well. Seeing Yue Shern doing all the fighting stunts is also priceless, because she never actually took part in any martial arts before, so it’s really pleasing to watch her punch. Lol. Another comical incident happened to Eejon again. Each kickboxing lesson we would have to find a partner, so Jon and I ended up being partners. While we were on the process of practicing some leg stunt calls, all of a sudden, Shreeeeeeedd !!! Again…. his pant was torn at the right knee level. Haha! We were laughing until both of us squad down on the floor. Without any doubt, Eejon already reached the maximum allowance of humiliation! It’s so unconventional right? Pants torn 2 days in a row, I would call that…. A Legend!!

I really enjoyed the whole kickboxing thing, not only can learn self-defense but had a great time with friends. Great friends surrounding you will make things interesting in whatever you learn, especially kickboxing, including my studies.

College

2009-05-06T07:16:00.000-07:00

Sofia's Birthday!

Bob's Birthday!

Random photo taken in psychology class!

haven't update my blog for like 5 months?
Yea....was busy with college (adapting with the new life style), and the main reason was, Lazy!

Let's start with college. When i entered Disted college, i felt that i made the wrong decision, because everything seems so wrong to me, friends, subject, place i stayed, everything, and perhaps, The Wrong College? Hmmm... But as time goes by, i met a bunch of friends, which i really enjoy mixing with. you guys know who is it la, damn good in studies, and also know how to enjoy when it is necessary, Cool right? lol!
Wanna take this opportunity to thank a friend of mine too. Lets name that person S, stands for saviour. At one time, when I was so worried about my Bio report and i really needed a place where i can online, 'S' offered and said i can go S's house, thank God, really saved my day! and S's help keep on coming like rainstorm! example, in my math, Bio HAE, and also Bio exam. really thank 'S'for helping out.

Just wanna add that the friends which i'm mixing with now is really cool! of course, there is ups and downs, but always ended up great!

Now I'm just hoping to improve my studies as much as I could. I do get disappointments in college (STUDIES), quite a lot I might add.

But this...... "What defines us is how we rise from the fall", really need to understand this phrase, really do!

God Will Heal !!!!!

2008-11-25T08:43:00.000-08:00

Today I just finished my Physics paper, was so happy, cause its the last paper that i need to worry for.
After Physics examination, I went back and enjoyed my movies! "Finally, SPM is almost over, I'm free!!" said to myself, as if I had wings!!

Unfortunately, I heard a bad news.... about my cousin brother...
He was infected by a disease called LUPUS. I found out about this news 3 days before and I was shocked, I can't even concentrate reading my Biology!! When i was thinking so much, my Dad told me that the doctor had not yet confirm, I was relieved. And i continued my daily activities like nothing had happened. As i came back home this afternoon, my parents told me the Doctor had confirmed my cousin brother is affected by Lupus.

Lupus is an autoimmune disease that can affect various parts of the body, including the skin, joints, heart, lungs, blood, kidneys and brain. Our body's immune system makes proteins called antibodies to protect our body against viruses, bacteria which called antigens. But in Lupus, the immune system cannot tell the difference between foreign substances and its own cells and tissues. The immune system then makes antibodies to fight against itself !!

Lupus can be fatal!! and there is no cure for it... What can be done is just by eating lots of medicine to control the bacteria, viruses and hope it won't attack any part of the body like brain , kidneys, and mouth which can cause a really big ulcer...

In the evening, my parents and I went to Penang and visited him. His face had swollen and everything he sees has 2 visions. I was damn worry, but happy at the same time, he was sitting on the couch waiting for us, and we talked for some time too.

This cousin brother of mine is the one I love the most among all my relatives! He is like my own brother... This question bothered me for hours, "How could he get this disease???!!!" how? Then a voice came to me, things happened for a reason, Pray!!! I simply believe that God will heal him and his whole family will see this miracle and Salvation will reach to them! All the Christians out there who read this, please pray hard for him, he is only 16 years old and there is a full life ahead for him that can be used by God to do amazing things!

Now I'm not that worry anymore, because I know he will be heal.
God is a miracle God!
I know my Redeemer lives.....

I'm Overwhelmed!!!

2008-10-15T11:39:00.000-07:00

This is the Jenny I mentioned about.... She is definitely an amazing sister! Haha!!! No words that can describe her. I'm touched by an angle, so lucky to have her as my gorgeous sister.

All this while I thought someone like her is a mythical. A lot of
people that I care for is always or usually very phoney, but she
is not. During predicament situation, she will just pop out of no where and helped me. Just afraid that i'll be too reliant on her, i realized...

Praise God.... God Bless me abundantly by giving me a sister!
Jenny is seriously a great sis and very matured indeed, thinks like a man! hah!

Faith In God

2008-10-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

Praise God!!!

I had been studying really hard, and I even sleep lesser nowadays... But my mind always clung with gratuitous thoughts, etc...negative and critical thoughts. Like, can I really do it? left so few days? so many subjects? what if i disappoint my parents? I was so worried! I really don't know if I can do it...so I prayed...

Miraculously, God talked to me Immediately, Immediately!!! great huh?.... During our Youth Service, Pastor Daniel preached bout "Right Thinking, Right Living".... this sentence ( Before we even have Faith in God, God already have Faith in us, and If we are willing to trust God, God will give us the Strength, Wisdom and Courage that we need...all this will be given to us from God )!!
wanna give God all my Praises, for HE is always there to help me whenever i felt discourage.
I'm truly grateful to my pastor too, Pastor Daniel...!! I know that I can Serve God with all my heart, and also have good results for God!

I will trust God with all my heart....
Read Matthew 14:25-32.... I hope that I can have the Faith like Peter, who are not afraid and have no doubt towards God!!

My SPM and My Dream....

2008-10-08T13:17:00.000-07:00

pheewww....
I wrote this straight away just after i had finished my revision!!! ahaha.....

left 33 days to go till my big exam (SPM)!!
this few days I have been studying really hard, don't even have the time to go LOO!! Last year (2007-January) until this year (2008-August), i don't really read my books at all, but when my SPM is around the corner, i only realize its too late! I really regretted and almost gave up, but then Jenny said to me, "there is no time to regret, keep moving forward and do the right thing"!!! that sentence she said really encouraged me.

God truly helped me go through all this difficult times... Every time before i started my revision, i would pray, and i could feel the difference straight away... HE gave me wisdom and the strength to study, praise God! Although its a bit late, but if i really try my best, God surely help and bless me, i'm so damn sure...haha!! I know that if I give my BEST, God will do the REST!

Hope that my hard work will pay off, so I can chase after my dream, that is to go overseas and further my study there. Since I was young, I always loved and wanted to go English country! America, Australia, Europe or whatsoever.... Inherit from my Mum i guess... I love everything about them....The Weather, The Sight, and especially the PEOPLE (sharp nose, blue eyes and tall)!!! wow!! perfect huh? love (Ang Moh)...haha!!

I simply believe that God will make arrangement for me if i tried my best!!

Stronger and Sharper

2008-10-03T04:40:00.003-07:00

hrmmm.... where do I start?

I'm very happy that God sent me someone, Jenny Lee as my sister! When I didn't have anyone to go to, HE sent me someone who helped me so much. Jenny is such a potential human being, haha!! she is great in like....everything, especially brain washing me! she helped me to overcome many things in my life. I met Jenny in Emerge KL this year, she was a cluster leader and so coincidence I sat beside her, thats how we meet....

I had encountered so much recently, like relationships and my thoughts, my childish thoughts. I'm more than happy to admit that I was not matured enough, and Jenny was the one who helped me realised it. (thanks Jenny)!!!!

I was a person who always looked down on myself and felt that I was stupid, useless and not IMPORTANT, then someone told me..... You Are Who You Think You Are!!! this made me woke up! I'm a Son Of God, I am Important!

Back to relationship, I'm bad in relationship....but trying to improve and last few months I really learned something. Never trust anyone so easily, maybe when you say it out it's very easy, but try living it out, its hard, trust me!! A true friend, when can I find one? I kept asking God. because i never had a true friend, all this while i thought i had one, but no! And then God answered me, Patience.....ok!!! it's my reply to God. A true friend is when he/she is there for you when you're having trouble, and understands you!!! that is true friend....not just having fun together, but going through bad times as well.
(A true friend is one who is there for you in good times or bad times and understands you....)

Relationship with a person you like....wow!!! that's tough. i've dated 5 times, but everytime ending up getting hurt. I like to date because being with someone you like is like in Heaven. But then, someone came and asked me this.... "are you really ready to date? Dating isn't just having dinner together or go for movies together or having a great time together, dating is a long-term relationship and falling in love with the same girl again and again"..... Then I woke up again, and asked myself, am I ready? I'm definitely sure that I'm still not ready for a long-term relationship, not at all!!! I have to control myself, controlling one thing is easy, trying to control oneself, its harder than doing revision...haha!!

I'm only 17 years old, i still have a long way to go, and there are so many things that i still need to learn and encounter... God, Family and Study is my priority!! I'll try my best to be a better and stronger person for God....I'll really try.

Better In Time......